Update

Here I am again, getting lazy.. tsk, should start to move my ass before it's too late, nyahaha!

My parents celebrated their silver wedding anniversary, and wow! Cannot believe that WE stayed that long :D I was really proud that we stayed strong through so many obstacles and hardships. Like any other family, we had our ups and down, financial problems, our differences, going through times of rebellions when we thought that we had the world at our hands and that our parents was suffocating  and the usual excuses of teenagers entering their maturing and difficult stage in life. Thinking about it, it makes me frown and grinned sometimes of all the troubles that I gave to my Nanay and Tatay and well, my younger brothers too. But one thing I'm so proud about my family is, unlike most of the families today, we didn't experienced to question my father's fidelity. I always brag about it with my friends! I really think it was cool and I have every right :)

Up today, I'm still having difficulty on how to go on with my life.. I'm turning 2* this year and my life doesn't have any directions! TT.TT I'm so sorry... Hay... I sucks! 

OBSESSION...

You are the center of my universe

But no matter how much I struggle,

I can never be the center of yours.

Even though being with him puts me at ease

The more I want to know him,

the more anxious I become.

It seems that I'm no longer in control.

This feeling...

Is this love or dependency?

I can no longer tell them apart.

Despite this feelings that keep on drowning me,

the choices I used to make

I would have been happy to be chosen

Even if I only ended up being thrown away.

I want to be by your side forever...

Listen to your voice for eternity.

And only love me, my everything

even my twisted heart...

This is my second time doing a poem from a manga that I read. If you've read Katekyo! (it's a yaoi manga mainly focuses on the love story of Rintarou and his private tutor, Kaede) you might be familiar with this. 

This are thoughts of Kaede when he's having doubts and being anxious with his relationship with Rintarou. Well, the series is a little... perverted (no. okay, okay... little is being "exaggerated") but if your after a good story I can really say that it was more that okay for me. Especially when it comes to Kaede's possessiveness that was balanced by Rintarou's sweet and understanding demeanor. I really like this couple ^.^ (minus the s** part :D)

Etc...

"Thoughts become things."

Wow, it's been a while since the last time I posted here ^.^'  There's nothing really exciting that's going on anyway. 


I still have a month before my day starts to get busy. So before that, I plan to do some stuff. I joined my friend in her garage sale because I realized that I  had a lot of barely used clothes and things that just add clatter to my room. And frankly speaking, I need money ^__^


Oh yeah, I don't know why but, I'm having a "fetish" with yaoi mangas today... hmm.. One day I got curious when I saw Junjou Romantica and thought to browse it but then I found myself already hooked with Usagi and Misaki whirlwind  love affair. Am I weird to read a love story of both sexes??? >.< 

 I don't know why but I think the yaoi is more, uhm... intense? Or I guess they evoke feelings on the readers that some of the shoujo mangas lack. I aslo applaud the mangaka for his/ her wit because, really, I had a good laugh to the scenes and lines. Most especially when Misaki berate Usagi on using him as one of the character of his BL novel or his Usamipheromone :D 
The drama and the contradicting emotions was also good and I must say that I felt it too. The anime was also good because they stick with the story line in the manga. I hope that I can find another awesome story like this. And this time with the normal set-up :)

Dream Boyfriend

I got this from one of the wall post in my FB account... when I read this, all I can do was to have a long sigh.... Is there really a guy like this out there?? If there is, where are you??!! 

A REAL BOYFRIEND (or they say..)

Don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.
I don't care if you are a guy or a woman or Michael Jackson.
Just read this, it will make a difference.
If only everyone could see this and understand it.


When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she
thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's important.
- Don't talk about other girls around her
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"

Designer??

I never knew that designing dress that comes from recyclable products can be fun. And I never thought that I have a "talent" in doing one :p

My aunt just texted me to help me with my cousins project. It didn't come to my mind that the said "project" was joining a fashion show/pageant with the recycled products as the theme.The thing was, the so called pageant will be held a day after she said she inform my aunt that she needed the gown. (Urgh! Speaking of last minute... she's the princess of cramming)

Anyways, although it was time constraining and kinda rushed, we managed to finish it on time :)

Add with a great make-up and voila! What do you think?? Although we didn't won, we had a great time while planning and doing this ^.^ 

Ouran HIgh School Host Club Fever!

I just finished reading Ouran High School Host Club manga the other day and watching the anime yesterday. Jessa, my otaku buddy (I think?) told me before to read this (if I remember correctly, it was October last year when she said it to me). On the first chapter I was instantly and hopelessly in love with the character. And I blame myself for not reading this immediately! 

I totally agreed with one of the comments in the forum that I read. You will be hooked with the characters foolishness and stupidity. I never laugh so hard for a manga and the story lines and jokes we’re amazing (even though most of it we’re so crazy to understand)

I feel that I will do a big injustice if I just pick one of them as my favorite because each character compliments one another (or completed the whole fiasco!)  I like Mori sempai’s quiet and almost limited lines persona. Honey’s sweet, cuddly and very immature acts but I believe he seconded Kyouya on being too perceptive with the going on to the club member.

Speaking of Kyouya, I think I can slightly relate on him. From his being analytical, seriousness and the great mind behind most of the schemes. And hey, we’re both cool! (hehe…) But I also love the relationship between Tamaki and him. And how he treasures their friendship despite of the pressures from his family. 

But the one that greatly marked on my mind was the Hitachii’s story. Hmmm… I’m still thinking why… Maybe they’re too many contradictions or the way they cling to each other? Don’t know… Well, maybe, I just saw myself sometimes on them too ^.^  But between the two, I’m more Hikaru than Kouru. (for being so selfish and immature, hoho…)

Although their development was too long for me, (speaking of being oblivious)  I still love TamakixHikaru love team. I got most of my stomachache from Tamaki’s antics and stupidity and Hikaru’s almost no nonsense acts.  

About the anime version, it was good and most of the episodes still close to the manga, but I was a little bit disappointed with the last two episodes. I have a feeling that it was rushed and if you did not read the manga, it will left you with a lot of questions (like what happened with Tamaki's mother, his relationship with his grandma, the twin's feelings with for Haruhi. etc) Still, the important thing was it made me smile for the whole day  ^___^

*And one thing more, with one of the extra character, I like Renge the most. Though some may say the opposite (your free to your own opinion :p) I'm currently working on her video with her scenes in the Ouran. Hope someone will watch it ^^ (I'll post it in Youtube, titled, Renge in action!)

My Buddy

Introducing, BLACKIE!

It’s been years since we adopted a dog (I think it was eight years ago?? Sorry, not so sure ^.^’). Then last year, my cousin’s dog produced a cute, black puppy that I instantly fell in love with. Though they already had two dogs, they decided to keep the new born. But then, I pleaded to my father to adopt the puppy but to no avail T__T

So what I did was just to watch him from a distance and feed him every now and then. I almost cried when the puppy (which from that time I started to call him Blackie ^^) come to me whenever he saw me. He was so sweet and playful.

And then after four months, I cannot believe what I saw when I went home from work! It was Blackie tied near our door :D Although my mother was half asleep, I pestered her with questions of what’s the dog doing outside. She sleepily answered that my father took him to be our pet! (Yehey!!!)

So, welcome to our family, my new buddy ^.^

DARK AND LIGHT, LIGHT AND DARK

DARK AND LIGHT, LIGHT AND DARK

 Something burst

Deep inside my heart

I just wanted to move, to run.

I couldn’t think straight.

Maybe I wanted to hurt myself

Or maybe I wanted to feel better.

I was bad at giving up.

That was probably it.

Right after dawn, the streets were mostly empty,

The dawn, even it began to seem dark and gloomy.

If my dark, useless world is such a hated place,

Then there is no point to my existence.

And then I found something…

Someone was counting on me.                        Like me, he wants to find his way again.

Once in my miserable hallowed world,           He’s entrusting me with everything.

Here is the person who needs me                          Even just a little it makes me happy

as the air that I took for granted.                         Someone needs me… me.

                                                                   That’s right, I remember

There was a time,

A moment,                                                 

That somebody needed me.         

Even if no one remembers,

Even if you yourself forget,

That moment still happened.

I know it did…

It’s true,

This isn’t a world enveloped in light

And yet, there’s more to it than that.

The world is more than darkness,

It isn’t only black…