Update

Here I am again, getting lazy.. tsk, should start to move my ass before it's too late, nyahaha!

My parents celebrated their silver wedding anniversary, and wow! Cannot believe that WE stayed that long :D I was really proud that we stayed strong through so many obstacles and hardships. Like any other family, we had our ups and down, financial problems, our differences, going through times of rebellions when we thought that we had the world at our hands and that our parents was suffocating  and the usual excuses of teenagers entering their maturing and difficult stage in life. Thinking about it, it makes me frown and grinned sometimes of all the troubles that I gave to my Nanay and Tatay and well, my younger brothers too. But one thing I'm so proud about my family is, unlike most of the families today, we didn't experienced to question my father's fidelity. I always brag about it with my friends! I really think it was cool and I have every right :)

Up today, I'm still having difficulty on how to go on with my life.. I'm turning 2* this year and my life doesn't have any directions! TT.TT I'm so sorry... Hay... I sucks! 

OBSESSION...

You are the center of my universe

But no matter how much I struggle,

I can never be the center of yours.

Even though being with him puts me at ease

The more I want to know him,

the more anxious I become.

It seems that I'm no longer in control.

This feeling...

Is this love or dependency?

I can no longer tell them apart.

Despite this feelings that keep on drowning me,

the choices I used to make

I would have been happy to be chosen

Even if I only ended up being thrown away.

I want to be by your side forever...

Listen to your voice for eternity.

And only love me, my everything

even my twisted heart...

This is my second time doing a poem from a manga that I read. If you've read Katekyo! (it's a yaoi manga mainly focuses on the love story of Rintarou and his private tutor, Kaede) you might be familiar with this. 

This are thoughts of Kaede when he's having doubts and being anxious with his relationship with Rintarou. Well, the series is a little... perverted (no. okay, okay... little is being "exaggerated") but if your after a good story I can really say that it was more that okay for me. Especially when it comes to Kaede's possessiveness that was balanced by Rintarou's sweet and understanding demeanor. I really like this couple ^.^ (minus the s** part :D)

Etc...

"Thoughts become things."

Wow, it's been a while since the last time I posted here ^.^'  There's nothing really exciting that's going on anyway. 


I still have a month before my day starts to get busy. So before that, I plan to do some stuff. I joined my friend in her garage sale because I realized that I  had a lot of barely used clothes and things that just add clatter to my room. And frankly speaking, I need money ^__^


Oh yeah, I don't know why but, I'm having a "fetish" with yaoi mangas today... hmm.. One day I got curious when I saw Junjou Romantica and thought to browse it but then I found myself already hooked with Usagi and Misaki whirlwind  love affair. Am I weird to read a love story of both sexes??? >.< 

 I don't know why but I think the yaoi is more, uhm... intense? Or I guess they evoke feelings on the readers that some of the shoujo mangas lack. I aslo applaud the mangaka for his/ her wit because, really, I had a good laugh to the scenes and lines. Most especially when Misaki berate Usagi on using him as one of the character of his BL novel or his Usamipheromone :D 
The drama and the contradicting emotions was also good and I must say that I felt it too. The anime was also good because they stick with the story line in the manga. I hope that I can find another awesome story like this. And this time with the normal set-up :)